Sunday, March 11, 2007
i hope that all is well.
i don't want to seep into depression again.
it seems like everything is starting to pile up.
mom is stressing me about the exams. (cause she sees that i haven't been doing anything at home)
gem2007 project is stressing me.
sigh~ somehow, i feel that i am not really suited for this.
but, going to korea after this sem is a comforting thought.
JJPAO was talking about going to hk in mid july this year with viv as our tour guide! i'm just hoping that my mom allows.
sigh~ i feel really bad taking money from my parents to have fun overseas. maybe i should loan it from them and return it once i start working 4 years later. but then again, 4 years later, all my income would go towards the family again. dad is 55 this year. sis is 6 years younger than me. mom is a housewife. sigh~ thinking about the future is just not working out. it just spurs me to work on harder.
i still remembered what motivated me to work really hard during my secondary school days. it was because my dad faced possible retrenchment then. the thought of us not having any money was horrible. it was unthinkable. and the only way that i could help my family then was to just work hard. and do the best that i could.
sigh~ i'm still not sure if i should go to hk with jjpao this july. =( this would mean that i'd get to travel more than 2 times this year, which is totally out of my budget. =(
sigh~ i dont wanna think so much about it. i'll just take one step at a time. and see how things turn out.
the writer blogged at 7:53:00 PM
