Monday, November 29, 2004
passion
was thinking about what my mentor said to me on friday. he said that there had to be some passion for biology in me as he said i was able to sit there and read the articles that were printed out. and searched for the stuff. but i wasnt sure how much that passion would be and would it grow till it allows me to study and go into the research field??
it set me thinking on the mrt. how much
passion do i have? i'm not sure now. i was pretty sure back then that i wanted to go into the life science industry, thus i chose the combi that i am taking now. somehow, i'm regretting it. my combi is a killer. there are alot of stuff that i cant do if i want to score well for the A's and if i am going to take s papers, the impossible is facing me in the face. i have to slog for the whole of next year. this is something that i am unsure of. i'm not sure if i would want to do it. i'm not sure if i'll be able to cope. but i regretted not retaking my chinese o levels. i think i have to re take chinese again next year. i wont let myself regret next year.
there are alot of people that i know that have alot of passion in them. i got this friend who is so passionate about air rifle that he puts in alot of effort and keeps on thinking on ways on how to improve the club. man~ if only i have that much interest in at least one thing. another fren of mine, haha. is quite passionate about his penguin. geez. but hey. at least there is something to look forward to. viv is passionate about hk and her entreprenuership opportunites. sigh. if only i had one thing. seems like all my passion is spread out all over the place. think it is time for me to focus it on one thing. oh well...
my aspiration was to be a researcher. but after finding out more from my mentor, i founf out that it requires a lot of hard work and interest so that i would be able to withstand all the hardships that i would face. it is definately going to be boring. sitting there, doing experiments over and over again, and finding out what went wrong, doing stuff in a systematic way. i would have to change back into the old and boring mh in order to do it? i'm not sure. i like the new me. the one that has evolved thrgh my sec sch years. and i've finally found out who i am and what i am. it seemed so blur in the beginning but now, all the obstacles that i have been through has made me see what i should be. ok. back to the issue on the lost passion. i dont know what i would like to do in the future. but past experiences with physics has put me off the idea of physics. i really dont know what i would like to do. i think i need something to show me the way.
okok. now, back to the events of the last few days. cant really remember what i did, but i know that i saw
a BUNCH of cute guys at parkway on saturday when i was there with my family. woohoo!!! haha. its been a long time. shant tell all of u where that place is, if not u'll all swarm there. wahaha. i think i'll patronize parkway more often these few days. haha. went for church yesterday. havent been going for a while. realised i missed everyting there and that i've missed alot. saw the sparklighters. woohoo!!! all k1 and k2 kids who were putting on this presentation for us. heez. they are pretty cute. esp the guy at the side. haha.
blur like sotong. kinda reminded me of myself at times. haha.
got this from banana's page..
I like you because:
U are willing to change for me
U are willing to try things i love that u once were so afraid of doing it
U are always there when i needed you
U are so worried when something happens to me
U rushed over when u just heard a small cry from me
U are willing to do anything for me
U care for me so much
U love me just so much
heez. she's hardworking enuff to type out the stuff from the chinese show, Mighty-in-laws. i was too lazy. the girl was so sweet!!! the guy too. heez. i just love stephanie song!!!! esp her role in that show. she's just so wacky!! and crazy. heez. so full of engery and bubbly. hmz. mayb i'll grow to be like that ar? geez. thats like so far away. that paragraph is like so sweet!!!! i was smiling like crazy when i heard her saying all that. heez. i think anyone too would smile... haha.
got alot of stuff to do for the attachment. realised that there is not much time left for slacking. geez.
i think that i better go off. need to do my christmas cards. haha. the cards are the ones that i make myself one leh. heez. tata~ ^^
the writer blogged at 9:07:00 AM
