Wednesday, July 07, 2004
f*ck
i hate it. i hate todae. todae is the worse day of my entire life. kaoz. freak. got a freaking average of onli 76 todae. wad the fuck. i'm totally dissappointed wif myself. didnt know i would do this badly. kaoz. fuck. i nvr resorted to using vulgar language. onli wen i'm freaking pissed, or sad. wanted to cry wen i came out of the range. juz could not cry
onli cried wen i toked to wr on teck chye's fone. coz its free incoming. heez. thanx! thn onli after i talked to her. thn i realised tat i could finally cry. onli she can make me cry. haiz. dunno wad i would do without her. kaoz.
reallie prayed b4 compeition todae. but it didnt go the way i wanted. mayb the Lord has something else installed for me. i dunno wad to do now. i passed chem. but it was not very good. kaoz. freaking screwed up. i underperformed. kaoz. fuck. i didnt study hard enuff. and i knew it. fuck. if onli i studied harder.
could onli cry infront of wr. the moment i heard her voice. i juz cried. if onli she was there. thn it would be better. kaoz. i juz let out everything that i have bottled up for the past 6 mths. i hate jc life. i hate it. i hate u. i hate u. i hate tat self centred bastard. i hate all the bitches in my life. kaoz. fuck. why is my freaking life liddat? kaoz. fuck. i underperformed. i should not even be in jc. i want to go to poly. where i can get a new life. fuck. i hate it now.
fuck. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.
the writer blogged at 9:41:00 PM
